I Need to Vent

I feel trapped right now.

I’m in my desk at work, in front of my nice big computer screen, with an iced coffee, my phone running Summoners War on autopilot, with my sleek expensive bag and my even sleeker, even more expensive shoes pinching my feet. I’m wearing a silk-lined blazer and my face is stripped of anything resembling goth makeup (my black nails are still here, though, AND they’re here to stay). The atmosphere is quiet and cold and there are a fuckton of papers and documents on my desk.

It’s 2:21 in the afternoon, meaning I have an hour and 39 minutes to go until I can scan myself biometrically and head out to school. It will take me an hour to get to school, and inside the classroom I will have to endure Arctic-level air conditioning, hyper-competitive classmates, and a dull, hunger-induced headache until my class ends at 9PM and I emerge, hopefully unscathed by the rotated recitation that everyone dreads.

Then I will begin my two-hour journey home, sitting squished between two bigger people (oh, the disadvantages of being tiny!) and barely getting to glance at my phone screen as I try to study for the next class, the words in the cases blurring together as my fatigue and sleepiness threaten to take over.

When I finally get home at almost midnight, I sink into my bed and power up my laptop, too tired to clear all the books and papers and jackets huddled at the foot of my bed. I pull a pillow over my head and my boyfriend will call, his voice calm and soothing, pulling me into our nightly good-night call ritual. He is funny and endearing and so, so sweet and everything is finally all right. We will see each other again soon, during our regular date schedule, but through our lunch time and nightly calls, we are together.

Then the call ends because we have to sleep. I’m barely awake, but I set up my alarm for the next day (5:00 AM), pack food for lunch and snacks, lay out my clothes and books and essentials. Then I will open Google Docs and try one last read-through before I finally fall asleep.

Okay, what the hell happened to my life? I wanted to be zen and laid-back and happy. I wanted to be a minimalist vegetarian with strong anti-consumerist values. I wanted to be a marine biologist or oceanographer, for heaven’s sake. What am I doing? Why am I in law school? Why am I in government service? Why am I poring over investment opportunities, studying heavy books and boring cases, doing all of these day in and day out? I’m supposed to be inside a submersible deep in the ocean or inside a laboratory examining specimen slides and sending out probes into the bathyal zone to collect samples.

I’m sorry if it sounds like I’m complaining. I know I have no right to complain. It’s just that my life is a complete polar opposite from what I want it to be that it drives me crazy.

But then, I know that this is better for the long run.

Still doesn’t make me feel better, though.

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Let’s Talk # 2 – My Everyday Makeup Essentials (feat. Korean products)

Hello, friends! Happy New Year!

2017 didn’t end up with a bang for me – it was more of a dying sizzle than anything else, to be honest. Don’t get me wrong, I had a great year – work’s fine, school is also not problematic and I’ve succeeded in establishing several good habits this year. My relationships with my friends, family and boyfriend are also great. Overall, I’m very thankful.

However, my December was a bit of a bummer. First of all, I was sick almost the entire second half of the month. I spent Christmas until New Year (until today, actually) sick with Upper Respiratory Tract Infection. I couldn’t even enjoy the festivities and family travels as much because I felt like crap. There’s also the fact that my grandpa suffered from a heart attack on New Year’s Eve. We were all pretty scared, but now he has undergone an angiogram and will beย  having angioplasty soon. I hope he gets better ASAP!

So yeah, that was why my 2017 didn’t go out with a bang haha. Anyway, that’s not what you’re here for, so I apologize for the ranting. Let’s get on with my everyday makeup!

My Everyday Makeup Essentials

Skin

Tony Moly Panda’s Dream Clear Pact SPF 25 PA – 01 Vanilla, Trestique Mini Highlight Stick – Maldives Luminescent, The Face Shop Dual Veil Concealer – V201 Apricot Beige, The Face Shop Photo Blur BB Cream

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I think by now almost all my daily skincare and makeup products fall into the realm of Asian Beauty, especially Korean products. I still have some high-end Western brands, but I only use them when I’m going somewhere special. I find that Asian brands complement my colouring more and make me look dewier!

For my skin, I use two products from The Face Shop as my base, namely the Photo Blur BB Cream and the Dual Veil Concealer. GUYS. This BB cream is insane! I bought it recently and it instantly replaced whatever CC cream I was using before because it’s magical. It makes your face look flawless without being full-coverage, smooths out your skin, brightens, and has SPF. The dual concealer comes in both liquid and cream, which is handy depending on where you need to conceal.

The Tony Moly powder compact is too cute for words! It’s pretty good at oil control as well. I wear it on my T-zone and cheeks because that’s where I get shiny mid-day, the rest of my face is pretty dry. This has no coverage, though, so if you’re freckly like me, or if you have some blemishes, they’ll still be visible if you don’t have any concealer or BB cream underneath.

And last but not the least is my Trestique highlight stick, which I got for Christmas and replaced my former powder highlighter because it’s just plain convenient. I use it to brighten my browbone, nose bridge, the inner corners of my eyes, and cheeks.

Eyes and Eyebrows

Etude House Drawing Eyebrow Pencil 01, Clinique High Impact Mascara – 01 Black, Sephora Waterproof Contour Eye Pencil 12HR Wear – 01 Black Lace

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Okay before I get on with my makeup descriptions, I just want to mention that I noticed something – almost all my makeup products are shade 01 haha! I just thought it was funny. You’ll see more of them below. ๐Ÿ˜›

This Etude House eyebrow pencil is one of the easiest I’ve ever used. It’s double ended, one is a spoolie brush tip and the other has an angled eyeliner. My brows are rather dark and thick already, so I mainly use this to groom them into place and fill in some sparse areas. My eyebrows are straight, so I don’t bother shaping them.

The Clinique mascara is my #2 HG lash product next to Lancome Hypnose Drama, but since I received lots of Clinique mascaras for Christmas, I’m going to use them up before I repurchase Lancome again. ๐Ÿ˜› I legitimately like these though, very pigmented and lengthening.

I rarely wear eyeliner these days, to be honest. But if I do, I use this eyeliner because it’s waterproof and doesn’t smudge. Definitely recommended!

Lips

Tony Moly Panda’s Dream Glossy Lip Crayon – 01 Hey Orange

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I don’t know why, but orange lip colours are the only ones that look good on me. Pink makes me look washed out, red makes me look like a vampire, and nude colours just look meh on me. But!!! Orange is just right. And this Panda’s Dream lip tint from Tony Moly is my HG MLBB shade.

Bonus:

Here’s the nail colour I’ve been using since New Year’s Eve! You all know that I’m into minimalism not only in my lifestyle, but also in my fashion choices – so my nail colours are only ever black or clear/transparent.

This nail polish has been one of my presents this Christmas and so far I’ve been loving it! It’s pale/nude enough to not draw attention to itself, and it goes perfectly with my skin tone.

LA Colors – Mega Watt

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This is a liquid lipstick from Kat von D that I also received this Christmas (thanks, awesome cousins). It’s super long-lasting and pigmented, in a pretty purplish-pink hue. I want to try to work it into my makeup routine sometime – maybe completely a completely neutral look with only the lips in focus? What do you guys think?

Kat von D Everlasting Liquid Lipstick – K-Dub

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Photos:

Here’s what my everyday makeup looks like! It’s not very colourful, but it’s exactly what I want and need – a quick, simple look that’s easy to apply and impossible to mess up, haha!

ย Too lazy to sit up.

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During our family’s Christmas party. (I have jagged, pointy teeth – please ignore. I don’t want to wear braces so I’ll have to suffer with these for the rest of my life.) My freckles and scars are still visible because I didn’t wear concealer that day – the BB cream and powder combo has minimal to medium coverage at best.

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This was during a date with my boyfriend! Indoor lighting + Dual Veil Concealer for more coverage. My nose freckles still definitely showed up though (not visible in the picture.

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And there you have it! Those are my everyday makeup essentials. I hope you enjoyed my post! Thanks for dropping by. ๐Ÿ˜€

 

THE VERSATILE BLOGGER AWARD

Hello, friends. Welcome to another blog post!

I’ve been pretty sparse with my posts recently, so imagine my surprise when Anabel over at A Latte Style (cute blog, btw. Really worth a visit!) nominated me for the Versatile Blogger award. Thank you, thank you~ โค

And without further ado, let’s get started!

THE RULES

โ˜† Thank the blogger who nominated you and share their link.

โ˜† Nominate up to 10 bloggers for the award and provide links to their blogs. Also, inform them about their nomination.

โ˜† Reveal 7 facts about yourself that your readers might not know.

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RANDOM FACTS

โ˜† I’m the eldest in my family, and I have three younger brothers.

โ˜† I am VERY picky when it comes to food. I have major texture issues! (I can’t eat too-mushy or too-dry rice, I hate the grainy wetness of apples and pears, I don’t like my food touching together, I have to cut my food up into tiny little pieces first, etc.)

โ˜† I’m currently in law school, but my first love is science. If I could have it my way, I’d be a marine biologist or herpetologist! Or at least a scientific researcher.

โ˜† I don’t feel like myself when I don’t wear black nail polish. I tried going bare, tried other colours…it just feels so weird.

โ˜† My eyesight is quite bad. I can barely see a foot in front of my face when I’m not wearing glasses or contact lenses.

โ˜† I travel a lot, but I’m terribly scared of flying. I wanted to study jet propulsion engineering when I was younger to assuage this fear, but I ended up on a different career track.ย (ยดใƒปฯ‰ใƒป`)

โ˜† According to personality tests, I am an Enneagram type 8 (The Challenger) and an ENTJ. I think this is incorrect, because while I am definitely highly motivated, I am also horribly laid-back. Like, walking-out-of-a-burning-building-because-I-can’t-be-bothered-to-run type of laid-back.ย ใƒฝ๏ผˆยดใƒผ๏ฝ€๏ผ‰

MY NOMINEES

โ˜† Pretty Peach Reviews

โ˜† Chili Sarang

โ˜† Wretched and Divine

Let’s Talk # 1 – What I’ve Been Up To Recently

Hello, friends!

I’ve been gone for quite some time and was unable to update my blog. There are several reasons for that – first, I attended a United Nations-sponsored training. Second, it’s enrollment week again. Or rather the first week of classes, but I’m not even done with processing my classes yet. Oh no! And third, I’ve been spending lots of time with friends, family, and my boyfriend. Of course, throw work into that mix and you’ve gone one very busy girl – me.

But I’m determined to stick to that posting schedule I devised. I’m going to write my posts ahead of time (like this one) so I won’t fall behind schedule! ๐Ÿ˜€

I attended the National Training of Trainers on UNODC (United Nations Office on Drugs and Crime) Community-Based Treatment and Care Services for People Who Use Drugs in Southeast Asia. This was a four-day comprehensive training, and it was very helpful and enlightening. I went with my colleague to represent our office, and we were the youngest participants there.

I had a date with my boyfriend this weekend! We were planning to go to a petting zoo because we love animals, especially those who live in farms like cows, goats, chickens, etc. Unfortunately, due to some driver issues, we were unable to go. But it didn’t matter, there’s always next time and the important thing was we got to spend time together.

Here are some pictures! We went to Moonleaf for bubble tea because it used to be our hang-out spot all those years ago. It was the first time I’ve been able to visit in a year!

I wasn’t able to bring my reusable cup and straw, but at least I know they recycle their cups. First day I got passion fruit tea and JM got hazelnut chocolate milk tea, the next day I chose charcoal lemonade while he got the house blend milk tea. ๐Ÿ™‚

Some random pics from this weekend which include our matching hamster bag keychains (mine is brown and his is grey), the koi from Nuvali’s man-made lake, my Vans, and the new seasonal Starbucks drinks. JM made fun of mine and called it a kiddie drink. It’s actually a peppermint mocha frappuccino with green tea whipped cream and Christmas sprinkles!

My boyfriend bought me a sunflower! โค He is so sweet.

All in all, it was still a good weekend. We’ll definitely be seeing animals on our next date, though – at the zoo or the ocean park or another petting zoo, I don’t care as long as he’s there and there are cute animal friends as well. ๐Ÿ˜›

I hope you guys enjoyed these bits and pieces of my everyday life! We’re back to our regular schedule, so don’t forget to check in tomorrow for the next post.

Have a great day, and thanks for dropping by! ๐Ÿ˜€

Zero Waste/Minimalism Discussion #1 – How to be Zero Waste at Work or School

Hello, friends!

One of my goals for 2018 is to adopt a zero-waste lifestyle. There is way too much waste in the world right now, and I want to do my part, no matter how small it is, to reduce it. ๐Ÿ™‚

Then I thought, why wait for 2018? It would be even better if I start now!

At home, I’ve started by using up all my perishables and slowly replacing them with sustainable, refillable or reusable alternatives. I’ve started a ban on plastic and styrofoam, and I make it a point to bring containers and eco-friendly shopping bags with me whenever I need to go to the grocery store.

I’m already anti-consumption so this is an easier transition than I expected. ๐Ÿ˜‰

Leaving your house, however, might also mean leaving your comfort zone. Sure, at home you can control what you bring in, what you eat, what you use. But once you’re outside, you have to be ready for the unexpected. For example, you might be invited to a picnic lunch or office birthday party, for a coffee run, or an impromptu flea market or bazaar shopping spree. What do you do then?

Don’t worry! Here are some easy tips to help you maintain your zero-waste lifestyle without cramping your style.

  1. Bring your own utensils.

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It’s quite easy to bring your own utensils around since they don’t really weigh much or take up considerable space in your bag. These are what I bring on a daily basis – a spoon, fork and a pair of chopsticks. I keep them in a small cloth drawstring bag. This keeps me from having to use plastic utensils, since those are terrible for the environment.

2. Avoid using paper/plastic cups and straws by bringing your own reusable cup and glass or plastic straw.

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Do you have a coffee or tea habit that you just can’t kick? Don’t worry, I understand that sometimes caffeine is a necessity. Of course, it’s better if you make your own drinks from loose-leaf teas or coffee beans/grounds, but if ever you start craving for Starbucks or Costa, don’t deprive yourself. Just bring a reusable cup and straw to minimize waste.

3. Avoid using tissues or paper napkins by bringing your own handkerchief.

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I know that paper napkins and tissues are biodegradable, but why contribute to unnecessary waste? You can always bring your own handkerchief. They’re more versatile to have, anyway! You can use them to dab at your sweat, dry your hands, as a makeshift bandage, an emergency filter, use it to tie something, etc. Plus, it’s washable. Can’t say the same for paper products.

4. Bring a reusable shopping bag with you always.

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Eco-bags are great. They’re washable, reusable, and far stronger than plastic bags or paper bags. Plus, you can fold multiple times without them retaining creases or wrinkles! I always bring one with me in my bag, because if I ever need to go to the grocery store or pick up some stuff, at least I don’t need to bring plastic bags home.

And there you have it! These steps are easy and effortless, but will have a big impact on the environment. And trust me, you’ll feel better about yourself.

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Unrelated picture of myself because why not? Haha. This filter is cute.

What about you? Do you have any zero-waste tips to share? Let me know!

Thanks for dropping by, and have a great day. ๐Ÿ˜€

Jen โค

Diet Update # 1 – Going on a Plant-based Way of Eating

Hello, friends! ๐Ÿ˜€

After watching some documentaries about the meat industry and its detrimental effects on our environment and health, I have decided to try a plant-based way of eating!

I’m not fully vegan yet, I still eat eggs and dairy, but I’m hoping to work my way to that point slowly. It’s currently my fourth day going meat-free, and I’m still struggling because I have severe texture issues when it comes to food.

I dislike most fruits and vegetables, so I need to juice them to actually be able to swallow them. I’m waiting for my tastebuds to adapt, but for now, here are some of the things I’ve been eating. They’re all vegetarian!

Before going meat-free, I ate meat every single day. Suddenly stopping was like a shock of cold water, because I don’t think the high-carb vegetarian diet agrees with my stomach at all.

I’m used to a high-fat, moderate protein, low-carb diet, and my stomach hurts every time I ingest sugars and carbs – especially fructose. I get mentally foggy, and I’m sleepy after meals. This worries me because am I supposed to have a bloated stomach every single day?

To remedy that, I’m going to stick to eating eggs, cheese, nuts, avocados and similar stuff I ate when I was LCHF (except the meat) for now, because it’s the only way of eating that makes me feel good. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

Hopefully, this issue will resolve itself soon. I’ll update you guys next week on my progress. Wish me luck!

Jen โค

Intention Setting and Quote for the Week #1

Hello, friends! ๐Ÿ™‚

I hope everyone is having a lovely weekend. Iโ€™ve just woken up around 2 hours ago (I slept in for the first time in a long time and it feels so good) and finished my coffee, so I decided that itโ€™s time to get the ball rolling. ๐Ÿ˜€

As stated in my last post, Iโ€™m going by my new posting schedule! Sunday is for intention setting and weekly quotes, so here we go.

Quote for the Week

This was just a quote I saw on Pinterest, and I automatically fell in love with it. I agree with the whole premise – believe in yourself, and you will be unstoppable. As long as you have confidence and faith in yourself and your abilities, you can do anything you want.

My Intentions for this Week

  • I am going to be early every day for work this week. Iโ€™ve noticed that Iโ€™ve been hitting the snooze button more often lately, and itโ€™s not a good habit to develop. I want to go back to waking up at 5 AM on the dot, even without an alarm clock. Iโ€™ll do this by sleeping earlier and relaxing before bedtime. No more snoozing on my alarm!
  • I am going to be more conscious of my purchases and be as environmentally conscious as possible. Iโ€™ve recently been reading up on the zero waste movement, and I was inspired by it so much that I decided to make it a part of my lifestyle. I go to the grocery store quite a lot for food and essentials, so Iโ€™ll be more conscious this time by bring a reusable shopping bag along and considering bulk buying. I wonโ€™t be buying anything with plastic packaging this week.
  • I will not eat meat this week. Itโ€™s no secret that Iโ€™ve been trying to become a vegetarian for some time now. Iโ€™ve been having a 14-day meat-free streak recently but it ended spectacularly when my family went for Korean barbecue. I decided to begin again and Iโ€™m taking it one week at a time. Itโ€™s my third day of being meat-free once again, and I hope I can stick to it this time.
  • I will try to get some me-time every day, even if itโ€™s only for 30 minutes at a time. Sometimes itโ€™s tempting to power through your tasks, but itโ€™s also important to have some time to breathe. This week, Iโ€™ll make sure to get some time to R&R, even if itโ€™s only to do some exercise, watch some funny videos, or listen to an uplifting podcast. Iโ€™m also going to try meditation!
  • I will be positive and thankful. Iโ€™ve been pretty great at this the past month, and I fully intent to make this my default setting. Having a positive outlook in life is so much better! Treat your life as a comedy-slash-adventure, not a drama. It feels awesome!

So thatโ€™s it for my first post. I hope you had fun reading! I want to know what your intentions are this week. If you have any, leave a comment below! ๐Ÿ˜€

Have a great week ahead, and donโ€™t forget to stay positive.

Jen โค